Last night, I went through with one of the most difficult decisions that I have made in my adult life.
It was a result of a lot of prayer, several conversations, and a dash of bravery. Do I feel confused and somewhat broken? Yes. I do. Do I know that I made the right decision? Yes...I do.
I'm not going to go into specifics here yet, because frankly, I just don't want to. After the situation has ran a little of its course and it isn't so new, maybe I will elaborate. For now though, it's just going to be referred to as "the decision."
Decision making is major part of life...that's something that isn't news to us. When you think about it, we have been making decisions since our brains began to function. What toy do I want to play with? What crayon am I going to use to color this Disney princess's dress? Who do I want to be friends with? What activities do I want to be involved in? Where do I want to go to college? Am I going to study for this test, or hang out with my friends? What job am I going to accept? We face these types of questions every day. The only thing that changes is the fact that the difficulty of the decision making just seems to increase with every passing day.
When we make decisions, we gain experience, and ultimately improve our character. In the long run, we understand this full well, but in the beginning stages...not so much. We have been told over and over again...life is tough, get a helmet. Still, it's much easier to acknowledge this than it is to actually endure it. Until we can get through the hard part, we just have to trust that the hurt will be worth it in the end.
For me personally, I know that God has a plan for me in all of this. He is leading me to this conclusion for a reason. It may just be a while before I actually understand why. While I'm working on this understanding, I'm just going to put my trust in Him, and depend on those who are dear to me.
As for you, my blog friends, thank you for always being willing to listen during my spouts of pondering. Also remember, all of us are bearing some type of burden. Keep this in mind...you're not alone. Whatever you may be going through...it will end, and clarity will follow.
Have a great Wednesday, and best of luck preparing for tomorrow's Thanksgiving festivities!