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That's exciting, right? After a few months of searching for a change, I have finally received an offer. I'm really happy about it, and a huge weight has been lifted off of my chest. I do have to admit though...I'm a little nervous about making the change. Change is a weird thing. A person can spend copious amounts of time searching for it, but when an opportunity actually arises it's still difficult to let go of the thing that you have been comfortable with for so long.
I have been anticipating the offer for a week or so now, and a small portion of that time has been filled with wishy-washy thoughts. My current job is in state government. I have been with the state for just over three years now; a year and a half of that time I was a secretary, and for the past year and a half I have been a research assistant. In a nutshell, I work in health care administration, performing audits and recouping money that was wrongly distributed. Want to know a secret? I absolutely hate the work. Working in auditing is literally the last thing I would have ever imagined myself doing. But, when you are offered a steady job, especially a job within state government...you take it. And you stick it out, because that's just how life works sometimes.
Here's the reason that I have been wishy-washy...I'm leaving a coveted state job to go work as a customer service representative at a local company. A very well-established local company, but a local company nonetheless. I'm super excited about growing with an establishment that functions on a smaller scale, but several people have made comments about how they feel it's unwise for me to give up a state job, with its sought after benefits and job security. In my heart though, I know, and I have always known, that staying with the state for the long run is not something that I desire. I have met some truly brilliant people while working in state government, and I absolutely love my co-workers, but the type of work is not something that settles well with my personality. I stuck it out, and I worked my butt off to learn and grow there, and that has only solidified the fact that it's just not for me. I don't feel like that is something that I should have to feel guilty about, especially when this local job will provide me with the same amount of pay and benefits that I am currently receiving.
Therefore, I'm "downgrading," and I'm more than okay with it. Customer service is so much more my element, and I feel that this job will help me be a happier, healthier person. I used to worry so much about "job image," and the reactions that people give when you tell them what you do for a living. In the past, I have cared way too much about what jobs people deem "successful," or "mediocre." But here is the truth about all of that...it doesn't even stinkin' matter. When it comes to making a living, do what you are comfortable with. Do what you are good at. Do something that doesn't cause you massive amounts of anxiety. Who cares if you choose to be a secretary, or a customer service rep, or work in retail over being a doctor, or lawyer, or even a government employee? I'm not trying to say that careers aren't important, because they definitely are. But if you are miserable in your overall life because of your job...is it really worth it? Everyone has different strengths, so follow your heart and do what you feel is best. Keep yourself in mind.
So...hi. My name is Miranda. Since graduating college, I haven't worked in my field of study a single day. I'm leaving a great job to take a chance on something else. I have to budget like crazy to pay my bills, and my writing career is still at a standstill. But...I'm healthy. I have hobbies, and interests, and amazing people in my life. Despite anxiety, I'm living...and I feel like I'm living well. My life is great, not mediocre. There is not such thing as a mediocre life.
Here's to my new job. If you're in a similar situation, I encourage you to stop worrying, and trust yourself for once.