5 Questions to Ask Yourself

I was paroozing the internet a couple of days ago when I came across this article:

 
Intrigued, I decided to read it. I am a thinker, therefore I ask myself a lot of questions. I figured...why not add five more to the list? These questions were designed to really help a person examine their life, and figure out exactly what is going on in terms of levels of happiness. I enjoyed answering these personally, so I thought I would share my answers as well as encourage you all to answer them for yourself.
 
 
1. How happy am I overall, today, out of 10?
My happiness level definitely varies from day to day. Today specifically, I would say I'm at about a 5 out of 10. It was just a typical Thursday...nothing terrible or life-changing happened. It wasn't a bad day, it wasn't a spectacular day. Therefore, a 5 out of 10 seems like a pretty logical rating.
 
2. What type of life do I want to lead?
I want to live a life that is pleasing to myself, to my loved ones, and most importantly, to God. I want to be able to make the most out of even the smallest, mundane occurrences. I want to be happy with my life, and I want to use my talents to make a difference in the world around me. I don't want to settle for mediocrity. I want to work hard, live successfully, and live honestly.
 
3. What does success look like to me?
Success means doing everything possible to achieve dreams, while making the most out of the situation you are in currently. Goals are going to change often, but the most important thing is making the best out of every day. As long as I give everything my all, show people how much I love them, try new things, and see new places...I'm going to feel pretty darn successful.
 
4. What brings me joy?
So many things...music, theatre, reading, writing, sunshine, inside jokes, fresh sheets, my friends and family, new friends, traveling, sunrises and sunsets, the beach, singing...I could go on and on.
 
5. What can I do in the next two weeks to bring more joy, passion, and purpose to my life?
I really need to focus on being patient, and making the most out of my current situations. I am constantly trying to hurry my life on to the next big step, and I'm missing out on so many important things. I want to learn how to push away my depression, and change my mindset rather than my circumstances. I need to realize that all good things happen in due time, and that time is not always exactly when I want it.
 
Did these questions help you realize anything about yourself? What are some things you're doing in order to revive your happiness?
 


Take a Risk?


I have a confession to make: I've never been much of a risk taker.

Or to put it more plainly, I've always been afraid to try new things...even things that aren't necessarily considered "risky."

Certain personality traits come with being an introvert, and not all of those traits are positive ones. Case in point; the risk-taking issue. I have always preferred to keep within my bubble, grasping onto friends who I already have established relationships with and doing my best to contain thoughts and opinions in order to avoid drawing attention to myself. I have certainly never been one to try "new things" or go out of my way to do something out of character. Meet new people? No thanks. Take a career risk? Nope. Be the first to approach someone? Um...yeah right. Those types of things have always caused me massive anxiety, because I am unbelievably afraid of rejection.

I think I have finally reached the point though, where I am sick of being that kind of person. Lately, I have been finding myself doing a lot of things that I would have been petrified to do in the past. I'm taking chances. I'm talking to and meeting new people. I'm coming out of my shell in groups. I haven't been afraid to share thoughts, or tell a joke that I think is funny. I'm making a career change. I'm all around learning how to loosen up, and take chances. That fear of rejection or exclusion that has always held me back is quickly being kicked to the curb...and I love the way it feels.

Life is short. And I'm finally realizing that anxiety and refusal to take risks is holding me back from a lot of great experiences. Being afraid of everyday experiences is just pointless. It's important to know your boundaries, and stick to your beliefs...but trying something new, AKA taking a risk, could provide you with something that you never even knew you were missing.

Are you a risk taker, or do you prefer to stick to what you know? Have you ever desired the ability to try new things without fear of failure?

What Makes Me, "Me?"

As I mentioned a couple of posts ago, my roommate Alyssa moved out. Before she left, she gave Amber and I "goodbye" gifts, which was such a sweet surprise. Have you ever met someone that is just a really excellent gift giver? A person who is just great at making things personal and meaningful? Alyssa is that type of gift giver. She gave me the most amazing necklace. If you know me in the least, you know that this necklace is uniquely "me." From the simple feel to the words engraved on it, it just fits me.


Each time I look at this necklace, I appreciate the fact that is represents me so well. And I don't mean that it represents me in a typical, "Hi, my name is Miranda and I'm a 24-year-old female" way. It goes much deeper than that...it is a visual expression of things that lie within my deepest interests and passions. As individuals, we all have these things. Sure, our basic facts and traits are important in our make-up, but it's the deeper things that make us special.

So what makes me, Miranda Hunt, "me?"

//I'm a thinker....which is both a blessing and a curse. My brain rarely slows down. I am always pondering or creating something in my mind.

//I'm an introvert. This comes with being a thinker. I love being around people, but I also appreciate time to be alone with myself and my hobbies.

//I have a legitimate obsession with anything "artsy." Reading, writing, dancing, music, theatre...I love every single bit of it.

//I'm almost overly compassionate. My heart easily breaks for others, and I sometimes have to fight back tears when I see homeless people wandering the streets or people fighting in public.

//It takes me a while to completely trust and become comfortable around someone. I keep a tight circle of friends, but once you become important to me, I will never stop fighting for you.

//I tend to live in a bit of a fantasy world. I daydream too much, I wish life had background music, and I'm still waiting for the letter that informs me of some magical, life changing secret. I often have to come back down to Earth and remind myself that life doesn't run on creativity alone.

//I'm very sentimental. I have a hard time giving up anything that has a memory attached. I will hoard anything from old love letters to stuffed animals, and even when I talk myself into letting them go I feel guilty about it.

//I love to laugh, and I will laugh at almost anything. If my cheeks hurt at the end of the day, my time was well spent.

//I remember everything, but forget everything else, if that makes sense. I can still tell you the exact outfit I wore on the first day of 6th grade, but I can't for the life of me remember to mail birthday cards or reply to text messages I wasn't able to get to ASAP.

//Words speak to me in a way that nothing else can. Books, poetry, quotes, song lyrics...anything profound and beautifully written makes me weak in the knees.

//I'm very easily influenced by emotion, and it isn't always a good thing. It gets me into situations I shouldn't be in, increases my already too high anxiety levels, and makes me feel like I can't cope some days. However, I still think I would rather be too emotional than not emotional enough.

What makes you, "you?'

Lately

I have written an average of two posts per week over the past month or so. I miss posting every day, but at the same time I'm enjoying placing a little more focus on other areas of my life. When you get into a hole, it's sometimes best to dig yourself out slowly. And after way too many weeks of letting myself be thrown around by depression and circumstances I can't control, I'm about half way out of that hole. Brighter light is ahead, smiling is becoming more frequent, and new things are in sight.

I apologize for lack of communication and replies to comments. If you have emailed/tweeted/wrote a comment to me lately, I promise I haven't forgotten about you! Trust me, responding to all of those things is very high on the to-do list that I have under construction right now.

Since I haven't been sharing as much lately, I thought today would be a good time to show some pictures and talk about something things that have been going on. It's always kind of interesting to reflect on everyday happenings...it's helps you realize everything that you are actually accomplishing even when you feel like nothing major is going on.

//Like I mentioned in my last post, I accepted a new job! I handed in my resignation letter last week, and I start my new job one week from tomorrow. Resigning from my current job was really bittersweet...I'm going to miss my coworkers like crazy!



//I have been re-watching the entire series of The Office on Netflix. I had forgotten how truly hilarious/brilliant the show is. Plus, I think it's even more hilarious since I have actually been working in an office environment for the past three years.



//I did some Mother's Day creating and made one of these for my mom, aunt, Granny, and Grandma. I framed them in some nice frames, and they loved them! I completely forgot to take a picture of the finished product. Shame on me.


//Speaking of Mother's Day, I spent the past weekend at home with my family, and my Mama of course.



//I also spent some time with Sweet Sadie, who still thinks she's a lap dog even though she's pushing 80 pounds.



That's it for today's forecast. I'm going to go schedule a couple of more posts this week. I will get back into posting five days a week if it kills me! Okay, well maybe not if it kills me...but I really will try my hardest, ha ha.

Happy Monday!

Keep Yourself in Mind (My New Job!)


Print made by me for Miranda [Hand]writes Etsy shop.
I accepted an offer for a new job yesterday.

That's exciting, right? After a few months of searching for a change, I have finally received an offer. I'm really happy about it, and a huge weight has been lifted off of my chest. I do have to admit though...I'm a little nervous about making the change. Change is a weird thing. A person can spend copious amounts of time searching for it, but when an opportunity actually arises it's still difficult to let go of the thing that you have been comfortable with for so long.

I have been anticipating the offer for a week or so now, and a small portion of that time has been filled with wishy-washy thoughts. My current job is in state government. I have been with the state for just over three years now; a year and a half of that time I was a secretary, and for the past year and a half I have been a research assistant. In a nutshell, I work in health care administration, performing audits and recouping money that was wrongly distributed. Want to know a secret? I absolutely hate the work. Working in auditing is literally the last thing I would have ever imagined myself doing. But, when you are offered a steady job, especially a job within state government...you take it. And you stick it out, because that's just how life works sometimes.

Here's the reason that I have been wishy-washy...I'm leaving a coveted state job to go work as a customer service representative at a local company. A very well-established local company, but a local company nonetheless. I'm super excited about growing with an establishment that functions on a smaller scale, but several people have made comments about how they feel it's unwise for me to give up a state job, with its sought after benefits and job security. In my heart though, I know, and I have always known, that staying with the state for the long run is not something that I desire. I have met some truly brilliant people while working in state government, and I absolutely love my co-workers, but the type of work is not something that settles well with my personality. I stuck it out, and I worked my butt off to learn and grow there, and that has only solidified the fact that it's just not for me. I don't feel like that is something that I should have to feel guilty about, especially when this local job will provide me with the same amount of pay and benefits that I am currently receiving.

Therefore, I'm "downgrading," and I'm more than okay with it. Customer service is so much more my element, and I feel that this job will help me be a happier, healthier person. I used to worry so much about "job image," and the reactions that people give when you tell them what you do for a living. In the past, I have cared way too much about what jobs people deem "successful," or "mediocre." But here is the truth about all of that...it doesn't even stinkin' matter. When it comes to making a living, do what you are comfortable with. Do what you are good at. Do something that doesn't cause you massive amounts of anxiety. Who cares if you choose to be a secretary, or a customer service rep, or work in retail over being a doctor, or lawyer, or even a government employee? I'm not trying to say that careers aren't important, because they definitely are. But if you are miserable in your overall life because of your job...is it really worth it? Everyone has different strengths, so follow your heart and do what you feel is best. Keep yourself in mind.

So...hi. My name is Miranda. Since graduating college, I haven't worked in my field of study a single day. I'm leaving a great job to take a chance on something else. I have to budget like crazy to pay my bills, and my writing career is still at a standstill. But...I'm healthy. I have hobbies, and interests, and amazing people in my life. Despite anxiety, I'm living...and I feel like I'm living well. My life is great, not mediocre. There is not such thing as a mediocre life.

Here's to my new job. If you're in a similar situation, I encourage you to stop worrying, and trust yourself for once.

Time Marches On

I'm obviously having a difficult time getting back into the swing of things around here.

My mood is a work in progress lately. Life is in a vortex of change; some good, and some not so good. My happiness levels have been super up and down, I find myself doing things that are highly uncharacteristic of me, and my sleep schedule averages out to something around four hours a night. I'm feeling very incapable of handling everything right now, but...time marches on, and I have to cope with it the best that I possibly can.

That's one funny thing about life...when things are in chaos, it doesn't stop to wait for you to catch up. If anything, it continues on at an even faster pace, tossing in more obstacles and multiplying emotional struggles. But somehow, things always come out right in the end. After all of the stress and anxiety, the skies once again return to a clear forecast.

This past weekend was very bittersweet. A few of my friends graduated from FSU, so I spent the weekend attending parties and congratulating graduates. I love graduations. They are a symbol of both endings and beginnings. A fact that was extra prominent over the weekend was that it was Alyssa's last weekend of being part of our little roommate trio. We said our goodbyes yesterday, and it made us all a little somber. Things are going to be a lot different without Alyssa around, but I know that she is on to bigger and better things. Plus, we will always have the memories. That's the most important part, right?

We had one last little photo shoot at her graduation dinner on Saturday night. Each time I look at these pictures all I can think is...friendship is such a beautiful thing. I always find it interesting to think about how you can go such a long portion of your life without knowing someone, but then when they become a friend your life is changed from the moment forward. That's how I feel about these girls, and all of the friends that I have been fortunate enough to encounter throughout my life. They are all a major part of the person I am, and the person that I am continuing to become.

If that isn't something to be thankful for, I don't know what is.