In the Near Future...

Since turning 25 a few weeks ago, I have been doing a lot of thinking about things that I want to do. This isn't really a new concept for me. I mean, I constantly think about things that I want to do. However, those things are normally always on a "larger scale." You know what I mean...things like major travel plans, and career goals..."big" things. Over the past month, I have been thinking more about smaller things that I want to take part in.
As I travel further and further into my adult life, less and less of my time is spent doing things that I love to do. I work A LOT. Every day of the week, and a good majority of my weekends are spent at the office. Sure, I read and write, but those are things that are also done within the walls of my apartment. I want to get out more. I want to do more of the things that I used to LOVE doing. I want to be an adult, while still taking advantage of my youth.
So, I have compiled a list of fun stuff that I want to do over the next few months. I guess you could call it my first "bucket list" ever.
 -I want to go to more concerts. This is something I used to do every chance I got, and I really can't remember the last one I went to.
-I want to go to Orlando and go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter. I love Harry Potter, and even though I live in Florida I have never been to the Wizarding World.
-I want to go on a "me"cation. In other words, I want to drive somewhere and spend a weekend...by myself. I know, that probably sounds awful to most of you. But, I think it sounds fantastic.
-I want to see more shows. I used to go to plays and other shows whenever possible. The last musical I saw was West Side Story two years ago. I want to start keeping an eye on all of the performing arts centers here in town and go to shows whenever the opportunity arises.
-I want to take more pictures. There was a time that I used to have an overabundance of memories in the form of photographs. And not on my cell phone, but on an actual camera.
-I want to try new recipes. I really want to learn how to enjoy cooking and baking. And with Pinterest at hand and the holiday season approaching...is there really any better time to learn?
-I want to appreciate myself to the point that I am not afraid to try out clothes and accessories that I wouldn't normally wear. I want to build a confidence in my appearance.
-I want to enjoy every simple second of my life. I want to be able to love the days that I am sitting in my office just as much as the days that I am free to do as I please.
What are some things that you want to do in the near future?


Recent Loves

Let me begin this post by being stereotypical and stating the obvious...

We are smack dab in the middle of the time of year that makes us fall in love. And not just in love with each other, but in love with everything around us.

Fall has a way of making us realize that there are still plenty of wonderful things left in the world, even in the midst of the normal stresses and chaos. Maybe that's where the phrase "FALLing in love" comes from. (Cheesy, I know. But...just go with it.)

Therefore, I thought I would use this opportunity to share a few of the things that I have been loving recently. Let's proceed...

1. The "Film Scores" station on Pandora.
Here's a nerdy little fact about me that you maybe didn't know...I love movie music. It gives me goose bumps. I find it amazing how the music in a movie scene is the biggest contributor to making you feel the emotions you should be feeling at that time. And gosh...how I wish life actually had music playing in the background. I'm actually listening to the station as I type, and the current score is from part one of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Bam. One of my favorite scores ever is from Requiem for a Dream. The movie is crazy intense and borderline disturbing, and I will probably never, ever watch it again...but the music gets me every time. Take a listen...

2. My New Camera
Okay, so as you can tell in the picture below, it's definitely not a real camera. It's a decorative camera I found at Ross for $6.00, but I LOVE it. I snatched that thing off the shelf at lighting speed. It is currently in its' temporary home on my desk. I'm still trying to decide exactly where I want to put it. And, a related side note: I'm hopefully about to buy an ACTUAL DSLR camera. Fingers crossed.

3. Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Peppermint Crunch Ice Cream
I almost have no words to describe this ice cream. It's like a Girl Scout Thin Mint in ice cream form. It's so flippin' good! When I go grocery shopping, I let myself buy one "bad sweet" to bring home, and lately...it's always this.

Via Google
4. New Blogging Endeavors
I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that I now co-author another blog with my friend Elena. Embracing the Road Less Traveled is something that is really new and exciting for both of us. It's very small right now, and still under some construction...but we are confident that we are going to do big things with this blog. We take turns posting...I post on Mondays and Elena posts on Thursdays. Click HERE to check it out...we are always up for some feeback!

Embracing the Road Less Traveled
5. Basic Fall Things
And...last but not least, because I AM a human being...I'm really enjoying fall. It's just filled with so many fun things...like pumpkins, and decorations, and weather that is below 95 degrees, and Halloween-themed wine. What's not to love? (Shout out to my roomie/BFF Amber for making the super cute fall banner!)



How Do You Save Yourself?

If you know me well, or even if you have just been reading my blog from the beginning, you have probably noticed something about me over the past year or so...

I haven't been myself.

Or, I guess you could say I have been a much worse version of myself. An anxious heart, several unwelcomed circumstances, and a whole lot of negativity towards myself has turned me into a person that I don't even know. This new Miranda is not someone that I care too much for, but at the same time I have no desire to search too hard for the old one. I look at myself in the mirror every morning and try to figure out where my joy, where my motivation, where my happiness is hiding...but it has been a mystery that has went unsolved for months now.

This past week, I was at one of my lowest points. I did nothing but drag myself to work everyday, and then drag myself back home to crawl into bed and go to sleep by 8:30 PM. I feel like I have no control over myself or the way I feel. I have all of these thoughts of things that I deeply want to do...Miranda, you need to blog today. Miranda, sit down and work on your novel when you get home. Miranda, go out and interact with other human beings. But, I just can't find the energy to actually do them...no matter how badly I want to.

Friday after work, I drove across town to sit down with someone who I view as a "mentor" in every sense of the word, and have a chat about my life. I'm never one to willingly sit down and talk about everything I'm feeling, because I hate feeling like I'm complaining, and I also have a major fear of getting on someone's nerves. However, this chat was just what I needed. I talked to him about a lot of things that I have been holding in, but unable to actually admit to anyone...or even to myself. Throughout the conversation, he kept making me realize that the reason for my depression really boils down to one thing. And that thing is...

I'm not a fan of myself...at all.

I have went through my entire life to this point telling myself that I am "mediocre at best." I beat myself down without even realizing it. I compare myself to everyone else, and in these comparisons, I always end up at the bottom of the heap. Miranda, you are always going to be one of the least attractive women in the room. Sure Miranda, your goals are great...but do you really think you deserve what you want? Miranda, no one is ever going to look at you the way that he looks at her. Miranda, you aren't good enough for that. Miranda...why do you say such ridiculous things? Miranda...no one cares about your opinion.

We have all heard the phrases about "loving yourself more than anyone else," and "loving yourself before you can expect anyone else too." I guess it's time that I really take that to heart. Because, when it comes down to it...there's only one solution to saving myself:

I have to start with fixing ME.

I really don't even know where to begin. I know that it's going to take time, and patience, and a lot more negative thoughts to get myself to a place where I think more positively. It's going to be difficult, and emotional. But...I think I'm finally at a place where I want to respect myself, and I'm beginning to believe that I deserve to respect myself. There are many out there who suffer from the same feelings, and there are many who have overcome the self-hate. I can be an overcomer too.

So, I guess I'll begin by taking myself a little less seriously and closing this post with a picture that shows off a quirkier side of me that is normally tucked away.

Happy Sunday!


The Power of Song Lyrics

As a "writer at heart," I usually always have something on my mind that I can sit down and form into a blog post. However, I do have days where I have the itch to blog...but none of my thoughts seems worthy of putting into words. On these days, I prefer to dive into the words of others. Instead of obtaining contentment through putting my own ideas into print, I lose myself in books or quotes or song lyrics that have been so brilliantly written from another's creative mindset.

Song lyrics are particularly powerful sets of words because they are appealing to not only one of our human senses...but two; sight and sound. You can read the lyrics with no music and deem them beautiful, but when the music is added and those lyrics are put into the form of the song...it becomes mind blowing.

So, seeing as I have been spending a good portion of my evening listening to music, I thought it would be fun to share some of my all time favorite song lyrics. Shall we proceed?

Fix You by Coldplay on Grooveshark

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try, you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
-Fix You by Coldplay
Burning Bridges by OneRepublic on Grooveshark
You and I were meant to be
Ain't no doubt about it
No way to hide that sort of thing
Now I'm waiting for something better
Ain't nothing better worth imagining
I, I keep on running
I'm building bridges that I know you never wanted
Look for my heart
You stole it away
-Burning Bridges by OneRepublic
American Noise by Skillet on Grooveshark
Angry words and honking cars
Satellites and falling stars
Distant dark blue radios that whisper down my boulevards
Ghosts and chains rattle in the attic
Broken headphones filled with static
Lonely room you've got nowhere to run
3, 2, 1 for all and all for 1
Times will be bad, times will be good
Things I wish I hadn't done, and some I wish I would
Cutting through the American noise
You've got a voice and a song to sing
Drink deep in the morning
Drink deep in the morning
See what the day will bring
-American Noise by Skillet
When We Come Alive by Switchfoot - www.musicasparabaixar.org on Grooveshark
The sun goes down like a photograph
You try to stop time in the aftermath
But it's gone, gone
Yesterday reads like a tragedy
I try not to lose what's left of me
But it's gone
Yeah, but we carry on
We are fire
Burning brightly, you and I
We light the sky
When we ignite
When we come alive
When we come alive
-When We Come Alive by Switchfoot
Art Of War by Anberlin on Grooveshark
Am I the latest in your art of war?
Thought your hands could heal
But they left me sore
You're so good at what you think you do to me
You're so good at what you think you do to me
There are songs I'll never write
Because of you walking out of my life
There are words that don't belong
Because of you I'll never write another love song
-Art of War by Anberlin
What song lyrics really get to you?


Do You Take the Road Less Traveled?

Over a year ago, my friend Elena and I sat down and talked about the possibility of creating a shared blog. We talked about the direction we wanted it to go in and the message that we wanted it to portray. We knew the basic premise of what we wanted the blog to focus on, but it took a bit of brainstorming to decide exactly how we wanted to present everything. And finally, after about 12 months of on-and-off brainstorming (and let's be honest, a bit of procrastination), we decided it was finally time to dive in and publish a post. We figured...let's just dive in and perfect the details as we go.

So, we are pretty excited to present Embracing the Road Less Traveled, a blog all about figuring out exactly how to jump life's hurdles and achieve all of those dreams that you have been putting on the back burner. You see, Elena and I are both firm believers that talents and passions can also be the things that help you "earn a living." We believe that there is more than one variation of living the dream. We believe that everyone is 100% capable of obtaining that sought after feeling of fulfillment.

There are plenty of blogs out there that touch on this same type of subject. But...this one will be a little different. How so? Well...we aren't experts. Elena and I are both on this journey to self-discovery ourselves. Therefore, we won't just be giving you directions...we will be taking the trip with you.

Come tag along with us...we would love to have you. Feel free to take a look around the blog. We have a lot of really awesome stuff planned!

Embracing the Road Less Traveled
P.S. You can also find us on Twitter.
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